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ID: 21.10.2017 by DemonianQueen ID: 21.10.2017 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 5 3
Literature
Literary Fragment 21.10.2017
I could kill myself
Just to make you happy
Still, you would blame me
For all of you wrong doings!
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Starlings 13.10.2017 01 by DemonianQueen Starlings 13.10.2017 01 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 3 0
Literature
Escaping the Abuse
It's this vicious circle,
In which we're stuck,
I always end up hurt,
You never give a fuck.
Naively I proceed,
Believing you will change,
Of course, you continue,
To play your toxic games.
When does this stop?
When either of us dies?
Maybe it's time to walk away,
At least I fucking tried!
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All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work.
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Literature
Literary Fragment 20.10.2017
You would not expect
Somebody with a broken leg
To just walk
So how can you expect
Somebody with mental illness
To just get over it?
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Robin 14.10.2017 02 by DemonianQueen Robin 14.10.2017 02 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 4 0
Literature
Life After Abuse
I’m terrified you will hurt me,
I’m scared that you will leave,
Then I will be left all alone,
Another relationship to grieve.
My weary soul is tired,
My bodies exhausted too,
I can’t complete simple tasks,
I guess I really need you.
I won’t withstand more pain,
I won’t tolerate more abuse,
I don’t trust my judgement,
On who’s kind and who’s obtuse.
So upon you, I lay this burden,
I beg of you to keep me safe,
Protect me from all evil,
So my broken heart won’t chafe.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work.
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Literature
Literary Fragment 19.10.2017
I need you to love me
Despite the fact
I'm pushing you away.
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Hunting by DemonianQueen Hunting :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 9 0
Literature
Dear BPD
What is me?
What is you?
What is false?
What is true?
I’ve gotten lost,
Down a rabbit hole,
Now I’m afraid,
I’ve lost my soul.
I cannot trust,
I cannot live,
I cannot proceed,
With nothing to give.
So let me die,
For I require piece,
I can’t go on,
Without release.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work.
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Literature
Literary Fragment 18.10.2017
You call it
INSANITY
I call it
BEING DIFFERENT!
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Robin 14.10.2017 01 by DemonianQueen Robin 14.10.2017 01 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 6 0
Literature
Abused
A tear rolls down her face,
Just another brutal memory,
Trust that was misplaced,
Shall ricochet for centuries.
The damage that was inflicted,
Invisible to the naked eye,
She is left afflicted,
All she can do is cry.
While he’s happy and free,
She is imprisoned by these chains,
Her future cannot be,
For she is now insane.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
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Literature
Literary Fragment 17.10.2017
STOP
Making everything
About you!
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I can see you! by DemonianQueen I can see you! :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 6 0
Literature
Confused
You have never been what I needed,
You only cater to yourself,
Whenever I required support,
You were busy with someone else.
Then when I was suicidal,
You were keen to hang around,
Only for the attention,
The poor victim you were crowned.
Now I just cannot stand you,
I have pushed you so far away,
I can’t tell what it is real anymore,
I have nothing left to say.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
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Nobody really thought
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He was a scrub,
Riding rusty bikes,
Wearing last weeks clothes,
Smelling like whiskey, sweat,
And some home grown.
He never had himself a girlfriend,
A decent job,
Or a car,
But he had some amps,
And old guitars.
He's not a superstar,
He never was really,
Because the thought of fame,
And fortune,
To him it just sounded silly.
He just stuck to his guns,
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Who tells dirty jokes to a nun.
The type of crap he'd do
Was known to get a laugh or two,
And no matter what you told him,
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And living so shameless.
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Far from it,
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The one from being eaten,
And many from being beaten.
These scars,
They tell a story,
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Written in flesh and bone,
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The worry lines upon my face,
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The stretch marks,
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The extra corners on my arm,
And these astigmatismed eyes,
The ground down,
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And rotten teeth,
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Aimless and shameless
Living on the streets again,
Limping along these rain soaked roads,
Wishing I could find some friends.
Drinking soothes
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Wandering the streets again,
Looking for a place called home.
Wishing life would simply end.
They surround me,
But I'm alone.
Don't get me wrong,
I appreciate you,
And all the kind things
You're known to do,
But you just don't know
What I've been through,
Just as I
Don't know about you.
Stumble down the street again,
Picking up change off the road.
It's only a dollar ten,
But it's enough for beer,
To make me feel like gold.
Don't get me wrong,
I should spend it on food,
But I'm desperate for something
To change my mood.
Try as I might
To be a good dude,
Everyone thinks
I'm dirty lazy and rude.
This life is not what's promised,
It's just agony.
I seem to thrive upon it,
So much indignity.
Feel this way for so long it
Kinda set's me free.
When I do something wrong it
Finally feels like me.
I'm just a lonley fuck up.
Just pay me no damn mind.
You could s
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Literature
Perseverance
He was always seen as a loner,
A psycho,
Just an outcast stoner,
Always misunderstood and hated,
Nobody really thought
That he ever would have made it.
He was a scrub,
Riding rusty bikes,
Wearing last weeks clothes,
Smelling like whiskey, sweat,
And some home grown.
He never had himself a girlfriend,
A decent job,
Or a car,
But he had some amps,
And old guitars.
He's not a superstar,
He never was really,
Because the thought of fame,
And fortune,
To him it just sounded silly.
He just stuck to his guns,
He just rocked out for fun,
The type of dude
Who tells dirty jokes to a nun.
The type of crap he'd do
Was known to get a laugh or two,
And no matter what you told him,
He'd always keep it true.
Well who knew,
That upon his death bed,
He'd be famous,
For keeping it hardcore,
And living so shameless.
His life wasn't painless,
Far from it,
But now his family is well off,
Because everybody loved it.
:iconpsychosquatch:psychosquatch
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Literature
Electrons
There’s always a time
When you don’t feel fine
Stuck in a small population
Where you feel like the only mutation
We surely do keep this atom in stability
Despite our amount of negativity
But under this state of compression
62 miles below our heaven
We only exist to satisfy
As our sole existence lie in an Alkali
:iconUnknownGoalkeeper:UnknownGoalkeeper
:iconunknowngoalkeeper:UnknownGoalkeeper 10 1
Literature
Written in flesh and bone.
My body tells a story.
It speaks of life itself,
As an alcoholic psycho,
Who for years,
Neglects his health.
Every scar,
A moment,
An image caught in time.
I look at them,
And realize
I'm anything but fine.
The one from jumping beat up bikes,
The one from stabbing myself mid-fight,
The one from being eaten,
And many from being beaten.
These scars,
They tell a story,
One most never hear,
Of a half dead hunchback,
Who's been attacked,
But pain brings little fear.
My corpse will tell a story,
Written in flesh and bone,
Of self harm,
And abuse,
And lashing out,
And getting too stoned.
My guts have turned to liquid
From far too many beers,
And my bones have all been broken,
Trying to kill my tears.
The worry lines upon my face,
The scabs from bug bites in my place,
The stretch marks,
When I lost some weight,
Speak of pain,
Rage and hate.
The extra corners on my arm,
And these astigmatismed eyes,
The ground down,
Chipped,
And rotten teeth,
Through which I've told
So many lies.
My body tells
:iconpsychosquatch:psychosquatch
:iconpsychosquatch:psychosquatch 3 1
Literature
Aimless and shameless
Living on the streets again,
Limping along these rain soaked roads,
Wishing I could find some friends.
Drinking soothes
My broken bones.
Wandering the streets again,
Looking for a place called home.
Wishing life would simply end.
They surround me,
But I'm alone.
Don't get me wrong,
I appreciate you,
And all the kind things
You're known to do,
But you just don't know
What I've been through,
Just as I
Don't know about you.
Stumble down the street again,
Picking up change off the road.
It's only a dollar ten,
But it's enough for beer,
To make me feel like gold.
Don't get me wrong,
I should spend it on food,
But I'm desperate for something
To change my mood.
Try as I might
To be a good dude,
Everyone thinks
I'm dirty lazy and rude.
This life is not what's promised,
It's just agony.
I seem to thrive upon it,
So much indignity.
Feel this way for so long it
Kinda set's me free.
When I do something wrong it
Finally feels like me.
I'm just a lonley fuck up.
Just pay me no damn mind.
You could s
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Literature
Laughing
While crying
at the same time,
trying to fix
what can't be undone
While clawing
at my eyes,
trying but failing
to remove the stitches
While panicking
at unreasonable things,
pathetic at my
attempt to stay calm
While lying
to the people that care~
While trying to act alright
to find the mask breaking~
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thought distortions/Daily Prompt 14
my blind soul has been caged
by negative focus
it has been obsessed with warped and twisted bars
they felt hot and sharp
they felt paranoid and suspicious
they were gnawing
they were prodding
they were cutting
everytime I suspected judgement
their power that I percieved held me captive
my body became
scraped and mangled
dis-eased
a reflection of my mind
I became immbolized
my soul paralyzed by hopelessness
I finally cried out
a friend arrived
I was startled
she had slipped through the bars that I had been so focused on
I was not able to see the space between them
I told her we were trapped
she kindly took my hand and
guided me safely through the spaces
she accompanied me through the in-between
I can finally see the bars are wide enough to slip through
I can finally see that I have had a choice all along
I can finally see
"The number one power in our lives we have is focus"
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Mature content
leave me alone.. :icon286yoha:286yoha 8 39
Literature
Routine
Get up
Get dress
Eat something
Stop dawdling 
Time to go
Get to class
Take notes
Pay attention
Exit class
Eat lunch
Resume getting to classes
Go home
Do homework
Eat dinner and browse internet
Shower
Brush teeth
Go to bed
Stare up at the ceiling
Let the silence suffocate me
Rinse and repeat
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Literature
Paper cuts
The pain gets sharper
my heart never explains
So I rip a piece of paper
Straight outta my veins
The page is full of cracks
It's impossible to read  
While Anxiety attacks
I allow my-self to bleed
   
Barely holding my pen
I start to make some lines
Words begin to spin  
My brain's no longer mine
I'm choking yet I'm thrilled
A grin while fighting my fears
Till all the last crack is filled
With blood, ink and tears...
                     
The same page in my hand
Is now a map I can use
I'm starting to understand
No longer am I confused
All The fog fades away
Once again I have control
that is the only way
I can understand my soul
My feelings are pure
I have no doubt    
Writing is a cure
I can't live without
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Literature
Conflictions confined to craniums
No matter the input,
It seems too little,
Yet too much.
A dozen conflicts
Within an anxious mind,
All in the moment
It takes to type one thought.
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Literature
know your heart
break with the norm
chase the dawn
capture the soul
of tomorrow and beyond
with joy seek
know your heart
you are the canvas
life is the art
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Literature
Ever present troubles.
There's bugs in my bed,
And drugs in my head,
And each time I wake up,
I wish I were dead.
There's thoughts in my mind,
That I must leave behind.
As I try to forget,
The tape just rewinds.
There's a pain in my past,
That I must negate,
But I'm still consumed
By madness and hate.
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Literature
Love
At times, you can bless
Other times, you tend to break them down
You are the reason why we keep living
Yet...you’re so rare in this part of town
I’ve been with you twice
One I regret, the other wasted my time
I only miss one of your forms
Since the other turned to wine
I understood your actions
Some abused you, some appreciated
Been asking for your return
It’s not like I could’ve negotiated
I’ll keep waiting
I have no other choice
But...what will you bring back?
Perfection or a convincing voice?
Our next meeting will be the norm
Taking advantage of my persona
To only let me down again
And show off your faux corona
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Big things
I wish I could be miniscule.
I wish I could be less,
Just so I could stop thinking.
Just so I could rest.
I wish I could be something else,
Anything but this.
I wish I didn't matter enough,
To have sorrow, anger, or bliss.
I wish I were as minuscule
As a grain of sand,
So the world would never notice,
As I slip right through their hands.
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Literature
Memories
The majesty of springtime,
at least within my mind
Reminds me of days fonder,
Recalling all the while.
Days, at least, or most
Whence I was free and true -
Those laughing, loving memories
I cling to, always, as if new.
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Literature
conversations with dis-ease(#1)/Daily Prompt 12
hello anxiety
you are valuable to me
you can tell me when something is wrong
you  can tell me I need to take action
you can trigger my fight or flight response
but sometimes you take over my body
you make me sweat
you send tremors through my nerves
through my arms
to my fingertips
you make my knees quake
my breathing quick and shallow
my heart off beat
for DAYS at a time
when there is no obvious danger to me
you always seem to come around when I have responsibility
you always seem to think the worst
you see threat in every opportunity
can’t you see what you’re doing to me?
dear anxiety
I accept you are a part of me
please stay
you can save me from danger
but not in this way
you need to take a break
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I am an amateur photographer and a poet, I battle Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Agoraphobia with Panic Disorder due to a troubled past. This is where I get a lot of my inspiration; you will find some positive pieces in here, a lot of the inspiration behind them is my amazing boyfriend. I am also an ammeter photographer! Any questions feel free to ask me, if they are personal please send a note.

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Awesome Pieces 11.09.2017

Journal Entry: Mon Sep 11, 2017, 8:04 AM
Corneille noire - Carrion crow - Corvus corone by ThomasHumbertRaven
DeepDeep
Deep into the skin
Dig holes into
The tortured soul
Make cuts reach its
Decomposing core
Deep into the self
To reach the monster
Twisting in pain
Thrashing about
Bleeding pressure
In this repulsive
Human deformity
Deep into the veins
Into defenseless
Cellular conglomerates
Deep into the flesh
To collapse all
Controlled normality
Deep into the mind
Into the neurons
Signaling of fear
Deep into the skin
Through the pretension
To end its protection
Miscalculated
IcarusIf only the sun could burn my pain away
ignite the howling darkness inside of me
the blood flowing throught the veins of the sky
is keeping me alive
The cold night breeeze is freezing my tears
leaving burn marks all over my skin
I wouln't burn myself if I stop to cry
How do I survive?
If the sun burns out
the darkness would eat my soul
sunbeams are burning down my life boat
but I cann still see the shore
The sun explodes
burning down the whole world
darkness caresses my bones
but somehow I'm still alive
Somewhere on the sea I lost my compass
now I'm only wandering around
the ocean's dreid out all I see is the ground
dead and bloodless
Now the sun reached the summit of the sky
drying the red tears in my eyes
I still feel the pain growing inside my hear
as I watch me falling apart
MomentumAgain I must stand alone
As I have in the past-
Again I know myself best
As I plan what to do-
Again times will be hard
As I gain perspective-
Again I will stand stronger
As I remember who I am-
At last, I will be someone I
Am proud of at each turn-

me by 286yoha
Freak Show Series - Family Portrait by BeautifulDisasterIam
sarcastic knivesAnother sarcastic knife
Passing through my lungs,
you can save or burn a life
with no more than a tongue.
                                             
Why can't you understand?
Is it so hard to see?
If you're not giving me a hand
Then at least let me be.    
Left a bad dream
Only to hear your rant
Stars hear me scream
But of course you, can't.
How would you hear..                                
When all you wanna do is speak?
When you won't come near            
And my voice is way too weak.
You can't feel my pain
And you can't see my tears
Do you have a brain?
Are you made out of gears?
I'm sick and tired
Of crying everyday    
My tears are inspired        
By the words you say
Getting closer to death
With each and every d
Hypnic JerkThe day is written on stone
When you’ll come clean
Fool me once, fool me twice
But never three
Your traps of delight
A mask to cover what’s truly under
Betrayal, anxiety, monstrous thoughts
For what reason? I’ll always wonder
Tricked by hypnosis
Betrayed by a false sense of trust
Anxiety triggered by nightmares
Your weapon of choice? Lust
I’m a weak individual
Break me into pieces, leave me to die
I’ll put them right back in your hands
Just do me a favour, and please don’t lie
Suddenly woken up by despair
A bitter taste of reality remains
A dream? Or a prediction?
Or is it possible I’m going insane?
Once againI find myself 
to be the odd one
out of the group
but merely shrug
I am used to it
not fitting into 
one clique or
the other
I wander by myself
no longer caring anymore
They had all formed long
before I joined anyway 

Heres Random Shit Again by Noiseno97
The magic of a field trip.... by cricketumpireA duck by Berlin-SteglitzBaby Stork by dramaticpeanut
Romantic Cat by Leonid Afremov by Leonidafremov

Here are some really awesome pieces that I have enjoyed recently!
I hope you enjoy them too.
❤️ 


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It's National Suicide prevention Day, please know that if you are feeling suicidal, I am here for you! 🖤 

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8 deviants said Thank you!
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6 deviants said ❤️
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1 deviant said I still care about every single one you!
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No deviants said No thank you.
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No deviants said That's kind but you're a stranger.

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Chrobal Featured By Owner 5 days ago
thanks for the llama
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Lethal-Woman Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2017
 :heart: Thank you for the watch I appreciate it
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cricketumpire Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
A flying visit to thank you for faving the dragonfly in "A fleeting visit..." Sammy    Butterfly Free avatar 

Sorry for the awful pun  Ashamed   but the thanks is genuine  Thumbsup Emoticon   Have a good week...  
    
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dramatic-poet Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2017  New Deviant
many thanks for adding my poem. cheers!
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JustForFun-Photos Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2017  New Deviant
Thank you very much for the fave and for the watch ! Rose Boquettt 
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XxQuothTheRavenxX Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks so much for the favs and watch! <3
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LisaAnn1968 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you so much for faving Rain Stars Pink :fairylove:Heart Butterfly  :fairylove: Rain Stars Pink
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SkripsiSarcasm Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your writing is beautiful!! 😍❤️❤️
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Okavanga Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2017
:iconthumbsupplz: Fave!

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linux-rules Featured By Owner Edited Sep 2, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
Hello! as my message is a bit long and I don't want to cover your profile, my real message is a reply to this one :) (Smile)
Here it is: comments.deviantart.com/4/3975…
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RicksCafe Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2017
Thank you for the fave ! :)
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cricketumpire Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
I guess all deviants can remember field trips when we were at school  Sasuke Walking - Free IconNaruto Walking - Free Icon Kiba Walking - Free Icon 

Hope my capture of the swan family on an outing brought back happy memories   LOL
Thanks for the fave   :TipOfTheHat:    Have a good weekend Sammy...
        
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Maldictus Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks a ton for the watch! It's greatly appreciated. ^^
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