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Splash :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 2 0
Literature
Never Stop Shinning
Clinging onto life support,
Hoping that she won’t die,
Hopes and dreams she won’t abort,
She deserves another try.
Demons won’t get the best of her,
The darkness shall never win,
There is light inside that she can stir,
If only she would search within.
Don’t give up don’t walk away,
She isn’t extinct just yet,
Help her to fight another day,
Don’t burden yourself with regret.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
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Aeroplane :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 3 8
Literature
Another Perspective
She wears her trauma,
Like expensive diamonds,
Carrying her pain,
True beauty shinning.
She walks with grace,
Shackled by demons,
Engulfed in darkness,
Her light still beaming.
An inspiration,
To those in her presence,
Emitting her wisdom,
Her strength and her essence.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
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The River Camb (2) :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 6 0
Literature
Fake Holidays
Mothers day is drawing near,
She longs to run and hide,
Advertisements everywhere,
Is what she does despise.
Cold reminders of the past,
Haunt her daily life,
Memories come flooding back,
Stabbing her like a knife.
Not every mother is deserving,
Not every mother is around,
Not everyone has a mother,
Her story will astound.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work.
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The River Camb :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 5 0
Literature
Never Surrender!
Creeping, crawling,
Insanity is calling.
Weeping, brawling,
Behaviour that’s appalling.
Rotting, dying,
A heart that won’t cease crying.
Clotting, trying,
A mother that won’t stop lying.
Writing, surviving,
Dead yet somehow thriving.
Fighting, striving
For a life that’s worth reviving.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
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Comotion :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 6 0
Literature
Bye Bitch Bye
You shot me in the chest,
Then cried out in agony,
Acting like the wounded,
I just died absently.
When I walked away,
You cried the world a river,
Pretending you were dismayed,
You make even corpses shiver.
I don’t require your venom,
I don’t require your good-will,
The strings attached aren’t worth it,
So find another idiot to kill.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work
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Nibbles :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 5 0
Literature
Dying to Live
Panic hits my aching heart,
Suddenly I cannot breathe,
Immediately the shaking starts,
Peace won’t be achieved.
Tears fall from dark brown eyes,
I’m pleading for this to conclude,
I proceed to be hurt and chastised,
To keep my demons amused.
Confusion, agony, hate and despair,
Is dying my only salvation?
For living I have ceased to care,
Due to my persistent damnation.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work
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Mallard 04 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 5 0 ID 21.03.2017 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 2 3
Literature
Invisible
Everyone around her,
Is cheering with delight,
Claiming she did well,
Saying she’s alright.
But when she sits alone,
Her world falls apart,
Troubles from her past,
Lay heavy on her heart.
No one else can see,
The damage that’s inside,
All the cuts and scars,
She fights so hard to hide.
© Sammy Payne 2017 All rights reserved.
All materials contained are not to be used/ reproduced/ copied/ edited/ published/ transmitted/ borrowed/ duplicated/ printed/ downloaded/ uploaded in any way without my express written permission. Feel free to contact me if you wish to use my work.
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Mallard 03 :icondemonianqueen:DemonianQueen 9 0

Photography

Sweeping :iconbrittanyfay:brittanyfay 30 2 Piedmont Church #1 :iconstephsphotography01:StephsPhotography01 4 0 On The Emerald Sea (2524) :iconwaynebenedet:WayneBenedet 138 54 Springbee :iconakxiv:Akxiv 51 6 Pretty Flamingo... :iconcricketumpire:cricketumpire 385 107 White Stork :icondramaticpeanut:dramaticpeanut 53 18 Wood Eye :icont-3-t:t-3-t 27 2 Dream Big :iconmateuszpisarski:MateuszPisarski 78 11 Splash :iconlatchdrom:LatchDrom 16 13 What Did I Do So Wrong? :icondramaticpeanut:dramaticpeanut 93 21 York Minster Sunset :iconrickscafe:RicksCafe 119 25 Charging :iconmohannadkassab:MohannadKassab 138 17 Zagreb ~ #1 :iconfrostedqueen:FrostedQueen 17 3 Wild poetess :iconmicrosmos:Microsmos 50 3 Edgar :iconedgedfeather:EdgedFeather 98 38 A moment in the sweet day... :iconmarjoriechamillard:MarjorieChamillard 74 23

Drawings

the man who walks with hands :iconnoiseno97:Noiseno97 4 6 Jared Leto 01 :iconexperiencingart:experiencingart 8 0 Pointillism Practice :iconbarakiels-blessings:Barakiels-Blessings 67 4 Wanna throw some hands XD :iconvisciousvixen:VisciousVixen 7 3 Gonna be one of those days!!! :iconthemasterofnone:themasterofnone 47 9 Uniform :iconriftress:Riftress 64 12 Forgotten mourn :iconhazelqurdrel:HazelQurdrel 1 0 Prince Paul and Toadine (Super Mario OC) :iconrg-hipolito:RG-Hipolito 7 1 A Reflective Moment :iconthemasterofnone:themasterofnone 48 8 The Joker JL :iconexperiencingart:experiencingart 5 0 Brother, can you lend a hand? :iconthemasterofnone:themasterofnone 78 9 Beautiful sirens :iconvisciousvixen:VisciousVixen 5 0 Saga and Sorata :iconsakurabachan16:Sakurabachan16 9 2 uhhhhhh..... :iconnoiseno97:Noiseno97 8 4 Drop dead gorgeous :iconmehu:Mehu 5 2 71 :iconfradraz:FraDraz 158 30

Writing

Literature
Suicide Note
I hope you don’t miss me when I’m dead,
When I finally kill the voices in my head.
I hope you don’t mind if I just die,
When I finally lose the will to try…
 
I feel like there’s just no incentive
To continue to love, or to live.
I start to wonder if you know
Just how much I want you to let go…
…Just how much I want to let go…
 
This is not a suicide note,
It’s just a few words I wrote
When I was drowning yet again
In so much bitter pain,
And I guess I just want you to know
That for you, I’ll hold on, and never let go…
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Literature
Hate
By thinking that you're the best,
Soon you're going to regret.
Because you have no friends
With hate, eveyone watches your steps.
You love seeing others fall,
That's not a good thing - not at all.
You enjoy every mistake we make
That's why others keep on you so much hate.
You think we are stupid,
You should look at yourself first!
Weak, pathetic, heartless
How I want to punch you with my fist!
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:iconsakurabachan16:Sakurabachan16 2 3
Literature
It's Ok To Hate Me
It's ok to hate me
For everything I've done
I deserve it
For the way I broke you
So please hate me
I deserve nothing more
I'm used to being hated
So it's ok to wish I was gone
For everything I've done
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:iconfredsumper:FREDSUMPER 2 0
Literature
Weak freak
They think I'm weird
They call me a freak
Wish my fear would disappear
But my thoughts are too weak
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Literature
Endless
              Possibilities
              Undiscovered uncovered
              The mind has opened
     
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:iconxxpurelightxx:xxpurelightxx 1 0
Literature
starforce #3
little sister, I'll carry you in my heart
and as I just fly by, taking the one apart,
who took you apart
little brother, don't be afraid,
wherever you may be now,
you taught me, you showed me about how,
about how this world works
so, I no longer run
I got a car, I got a gun
little siblings, never grew up,
yet I got everything, that could have been
I got your life in mine
drive down to the ocean,
going bout ninetynine
revenge is just a word, an instance, a second
a scream that won't be heard
I never had bad dreams about revenge
nothing left to worry about
my little 'sis and 'bro
I cry out your names
and I cry them out loud
my little, beloved ones
I'll always love you
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Literature
I don't want to live on this planet anymore.
Make the world go away,
I don't care how to do it.
I hate it more every day.
If we all die,
Then screw it.
I'm up all night again,
Scared and mad at the news.
'Til morning's light again,
Feeling anxious and confused.
Up in the sky above,
The storm clouds hang low,
And I can't find my love,
When I hate all I know.
Make the world go away.
I never wanted to be here.
There are no brighter days,
Only madness and fear.
I hate these stupid trends,
They're obnoxious at best.
I hope it all just ends.
Maybe then I can rest.
The dumber something is,
The more they love it so.
When kids are having kids,
They get their own TV show.
Just make a fuzzy noise,
Call it music, and it sells.
I tell you, girls and boys,
We're in perpetual hell.
I can't take anymore.
It gets worse every day,
And it's all I can see,
So make the world go away.
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:iconpsychosquatch:psychosquatch 4 1
Literature
Shadow of Death
So still against the darkened wall,
Sadness, a shadow standing tall,
Who covers every spark of light,
And stays to haunt me day and night,
While no one hearkens to my call.
The shadow faintly trodding near,
As it drapes my soul in fear,
And leaves me suffering alone,
With all the worry I have sown,
While rapture takes its final breath,
Now comes the harbinger of death,
Who slowly cleanses me of life,
This shaman of eternal strife.
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:iconphoenixofthenewdawn:Phoenixofthenewdawn 3 3
Literature
Warning For You
I need attention, affection,
It's like an infection, a drug
I just can't get enough, at all
And this will be my downfall.
I am lost, without it,
Lost without this, love you have.
It drives me mad, not to have enough,
Of this love, that I cannot fully have.
You still tell me your feelings,
I still love your being, as you love mine.
And I feel like dying, for the pain,
I've caused someone else in my conquest for you.
You still love him too,
Enough to ignore my warnings, I do,
Believe that it's all still true, but he's not the one,
I know you love me too.
But it hurts that you would choose him,
Over me, even though everything he's done.
You believe he's changed, but people never do,
He'll go back to his old ways soon.
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:iconbrando360:brando360 2 0
Literature
I hurt myself today
I cut myself today
To try and take the pain away
The blade slid across my wrist
Wondering if I'd be missed
I wondered if anyone would care
If I wasn't there
I burnt myself today
Hoped it would help in some way
Watched as my flesh turned red
as the demons screamed inside my head
I didn't yell or scream
I guess the burn wasn't as bad as it would seem
I cried a lot today
I curled up in bed to pray
My eyes red and puffy from crying
Oh how it felt as I was dying
Gasping for air at each breath
Waiting and hoping for death
Something strange happened today
Someone asked me if I was okay
I didn't know how to reply
So instead all I did was cry
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:iconzeeneko:zeeneko 7 10
Literature
Echo
Echo
Another drop falls upon the floor
A ring that sings within
Opening through another door
A knock between and in
Within the fall the time goes slow
A pause in pain to stall
Fading is life's purest glow
Caught within the call
Another droplet falls away
Darker grows the soul
Somewhere lost between night and day
Shuddering to your whole
Cracks and cuts within your heart
The soul-shine mirror shatters
Where the lines due their depart
And sensibility scatters
A droplet into the puddle fore
Mutilations everywhere
Dripping from your hallow core
Falling from you to there
Absent comfort, absent solace
You begin to think
In a time of purest solstice
As you near the brink
Another drip dares from your heart
Shaking against the cold
Has come unbidden to restart
Pain by: all the years of old
Memory returns, pain renewed
By their absent care
Though giving others smiles trued
The drops don't fade to air
Another drip falls from your hand
Resonating in your soul
Darkness daring its demand
A slowly gr
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Literature
Ode to the Fallen
I cry that I will never know,
of her everlasting love,
Her warm and loving glow.
As she flew away like a dove.
Despite his advanced age,
He was quite funny,
He never showed me any rage,
With a voice like a wise old tree, all sunny.
I would always watch him play,
Though he usually lounged on his side.
My heart Broke once when we gave him away,
And once more when we heard that he died.
Although she was overly tough,
I knew she liked me as a friend,
Deep within her a heart of fluff,
It pained me hearing of her end.
For one whom I knew since I could crawl,
I wish i could talk to him for one more dawn,
And say I was sorry for it all,
as I did not appreciate him until he was gone.
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Suicide... :iconmarija343:Marija343 1,938 1,086
Literature
Gay
I am gay.
I'm not a disease, I'm not a problem
I'm not an affliction
I don't need treatment.
I don't need help
I'm not sick
I'm not confused
I'm not a sin.
I am gay.
I'm your daughter
Your sister
Your friend
Your co worker
Your classmate
Your acquaintance
A complete stranger
I am gay.
I need love, just like you
I need smiles
I need support
I need a hug
I need a friend
I need a family
I need acceptance
I need understanding
I need you
I am gay.
I know what love is
I know what pain is
I know what hate is
I know what life is
I am gay.
And I need you to love me
The same way you loved me before you knew
I am gay.
And I have experienced hate
From more people than just you
I am gay.
And I wont change.
I wont give up.
I wont back down.
I wont pretend.
I wont lie.
I wont deny.
I wont hide.
I wont hurt.
I am gay.
And that's okay.
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Literature
I wrote
pen on hand,
words in mind,
soon turned into
vomit on lines.
scribbles and doodles,
tear-stained face and shaking hands.
words that make no sense and
words that sound like rants.
but every word carried the weight of tears,
and every line embraced the pain behind celebrations.
strings of lines uncoded
but those of same voices would know.
just like this i('d) wrote.
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Literature
all the blind
we bravely voyage on
beyond the safe harbor of dawn
tainted saints and sages
bitterly the new day ages
courting underlying fear
slowly the end draws near
no friend to mans plight
here in darkest light
all the blind straining to see
through the filter of history
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Awesome Pieces 09.03.2017

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 9, 2017, 7:41 AM
stock 248 by dingelientje stock-d56ybn1-Edit by nicholls34
Death Becomes MyselfDeath
I dream of dying a deep death
A death dreamt in deepest depths
Of hell in my head
Dying
I've been dying for while now
Don't remember when or why or how
But time is slowly killing me now
Dead
I'm dead to the world, and myself
I'm dead because I choose to live no more
Dead is the only title I own now
Death suits me well
I hurt myself todayI cut myself today
To try and take the pain away
The blade slid across my wrist
Wondering if I'd be missed
I wondered if anyone would care
If I wasn't there
I burnt myself today
Hoped it would help in some way
Watched as my flesh turned red
as the demons screamed inside my head
I didn't yell or scream
I guess the burn wasn't as bad as it would seem
I cried a lot today
I curled up in bed to pray
My eyes red and puffy from crying
Oh how it felt as I was dying
Gasping for air at each breath
Waiting and hoping for death
Something strange happened today
Someone asked me if I was okay
I didn't know how to reply
So instead all I did was cry
SickSick to death of the tears rolling down my face;
Breaking down, I’m such a fucking disgrace.
I know she did what anyone would,
I know she did it for her own good,
But I don’t know now which way to turn,
Or how to dampen the feelings that burn.
I’m sick of lying that I’m okay,
I’m sick of trying to be okay.
I’m sick to the bone
As I bitch and moan…
…I’m sick

Suicide... by Marija343
Welcome by SynthCorpse
Moments Alone by Mourning-Whimsy Bishops Palace Wells by nicholls34Soon, remains, just only the moon. by Phototubby
S - storm by Snowy2525
the man who walks with hands by Noiseno97Wanna throw some hands XD by VisciousVixenPointillism Practice by Barakiels-Blessings
People Suck by melodiezmel

Sorry I haven't done one of these in a while! Hope you enjoy these pieces as much as I did. 😊❤️ 


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Sammy
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I am an amateur photographer and a poet, I battle Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Agoraphobia with Panic Disorder due to a troubled past. This is where I get a lot of my inspiration; you will find some positive pieces in here, a lot of the inspiration behind them is my amazing boyfriend. I am also an ammeter photographer! Any questions feel free to ask me, if they are personal please send a note.

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cricketumpire Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Photographer

Thank you so much for choosing to watch my work on dA Sammy      :icontftdwplz:

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Nice gallery:)
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thank you very much .... yepyep...

I will try to read through your poetry... 
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Thank you for the llama.
Have a beautiful day.
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Thanks for the watch and favourite! Read and saw some of your work, truly captivating (: 
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Greetings! Welcome to :iconpoetic-poetry:, and thank you for choosing to join us. I hope our group will give you a chance to meet many other writers, enjoy many new styles and, most importantly, blossom and flourish as both a writer and a member of DA. :) (Smile)
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